Thursday, October 10, 2013

Who Am I?


          I am but with a mien of a true-blooded Filipino. A complexion of kayumangging kaligatan, brown eyes and a stature of a model, by model, I mean a thin body yet neither so tall or vertically challenged. Though my late grandfather has christened me with an Ethiopian appellation, i.e., Robele, both my parents are no foreign race. Inevitably because of the letter ñ in my last name, it was misunderstood as Spanish. An old story about my descendants reminds me that a volume of my blood runs the nature of a faith healer. A culture in our family that whenever one has a fever, instead of consulting to a physician, we consult to our aunt, a healer and she would give us diagnosis only believers of them can conceive. Another stunning event also, many decades ago, my late grandpa was blessed with immense wealth but because of his excessive generosity he was left financially incapacitated. For 3 years, I’ve felt my lolo’s genuine generosity worked in me. I’ve experienced it through others. On the other hand, I am blessed today for I have with me a philanthropist. A lot of factors mold my character and not just mere genetics. Through various settings that I’ve been through, go with it remarkable and unremarkable experiences. This has taught me the value of stewardship, prudence, cheerfulness and charity.

            I’ve lived most of my life in an urbanized area. Where I used to reside, were families of average class. A place that is very accessible to schools, public market, malls and hospitals. We had a big and active community. The Catholic Church which positioned in the center of Villamonte where most people spent their Sunday morning to pray for Spiritual food or healing. Recently, changes took place; my family now is staying near the boundary of the city, almost rural. Where I live, are people of mixed socio-economic status. The place can be barely accessible when it comes to colleges/universities and hospitals, for it will reach you an-hour to travel. By God’s grace, we live in abundance but not in terms of financial matters. I was raised seeing and knowing both of Roman Catholic and superstitious beliefs. The former talks about Father God, Jesus Christ, Mother Mary, angels and saints while the latter talks about wicked spirits and supernatural beings. But that doesn’t literally mean I have to conform in their ways, for I cannot deny in myself the curiosity within me. I would like to believe in the case that every wide reader is a Bible-reader, as one of them; I had known that the Holy book warned me of the world’s ideas, of false testimonies and of the truth.

            What keeps me going until now, despite of being broke, is faith. No past praying for because I know everything that happened, is happening and is about to happen is God’s will. I let God to be the driver of my life, therefore, whatever afflictions that I may struggle, I believe, Jesus is not just with me, but fights for me. So I need not worry. Someday, in God’s time, I could be a member of missionary acts foundation. Doing 2 great things I long the most; travel and share. I could be a travel writer whom I could spread God’s love through books. A businesswoman, too, who could share God’s blessings through a foundation. May God shower upon me strength, understanding and above all, wisdom. May I then, patiently wait for all these to come in His due time.

“Judge me, o Lord; for I have walked in mine integrity:
I have also trusted in the Lord; therefore I shall not slide.

"Examine me, o Lord, and prove me; try my reins and my heart.” – Psalm 26:1-2

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